Wow it's been a really long time since i last blogged :O And i blame facebook xP Probably won't be coming here anymore, or maybe just once in a while haha(: Lots of things have happened recently, the completion of APs (and the screwing up of it), getting rejected by a scholarship board at the last lap which is ok i guess since hopefully there'll be more chances to come, staying over at germ's house with the 12SHs!;D, watching an entire season/nearly an entire season of GG, ANTM, and American Idol, and now trying to complete all the english articles required for this semester while anticipating the next Pandora Hearts chapter :O

Speaking of ANTM, my favs were Alexandria, Molly, and Brittani (in terms of photos), so i guess i was ok with Brit winning heh. And for american idol i loved lauren since the start and haley later on, so pretty excited to watch lauren in the finals! Hopefully she goes all out :/

Just returned from malaysia(: hotel was surprisingly awesome for a 3 star with fees of $80 per room per day (meaning you can squeeze as many people you want into a hotel room but still paying the same total fees!) - extremely new, very spacious with 2 separate rooms, and generally pleasing designs. had a pretty good time of spiritual feeding and shopping hahahaha :D it's been eons since i last shopped k (excluding the shopping required for boarding night :/), plus it's worthwhile with the exchange rate, the current discount on top of the price due to the sales, and the possibility to further bargain down the price :D

Well was pretty relaxed for a while, but now that i'm back in singapore, i should get back to things i should settle.

And maybe along the day i began to feel worse. Frankly speaking i think i fare pretty well in terms of patience. But put anyone else in my shoes, there is a very high possibility that the person will grow extremely violent, bad tempered, rebellious, highly-strung and whatnot that can be mirrored or derived as a result of. I think as of now it is still within my ability to tolerate and to control my emotions and outbursts. Given God's guidance i may even be able to endure infinitely. But this isn't any justification to continue without selfchecks from time to time. And might i add it always helps to show at least an ounce of appreciation.

Sometimes i feel as if i'm thinking too much bout stuff, digging into the hurtful stuff. But then again, it's worse to be absentminded, thinking you're floating along in life when you're actually crashing, isn't it? Y'know it's funny to say, but i think the less turbulent your life is, the more time you have to linger on upsetting things that you should actually just cast away, and you become emo or however you want to phrase it. An empty mind is also the devil's workshop afterall. It's saddening to say but i feel like the past 17 years of my life has been pretty wasted, maybe except for the few times when i could make some other person's life better. KTVBS was one of the memorable things in my life so far, and i always think back at it with a smile. But that was how many years ago? 6? 7? I've lost track of the time. I miss following up with those people. I wonder whether they still remember me. It'll be heartening if they do, but given 6, 7 years, what are the odds? There's been so much inertia in my life these few years, so much distractions, and studies to attend to. I really hope i can get my life back on track, to actually do something meaningful, else i'll just be rotting away, non?

I guess life's so beautiful, only if you explore its depths.

Haha, you ask me how has life been, honestly i can't really describe it realistically to you. At this juncture, i'll just say wasted, really wasted. A 5 year foundation couldn't even withstand a quarterdeck. I'm saddened, disappointed, and have no other comments otherwise. Well what do i have to say? Expect the unexpected, the cornerstone could very well have been built on clouds.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

Simply said, I may not be oblivious. It's best not to test my tolerance even if you think i'll let it by.